Today is the big day! December 31, 2020. I paused and became too present as my eye focused with the realization zoom default. December 2020. I finally have a resolution to my madness. I have died on a daily basis this year. My growth became a over growth spurt. Not mistaking for once I have obtained the ego of courage & bravery. My first death in the about of January, I promise you I pulled my heart out. On one knee pleading to the realms. Please help me. Being aware of past trauma. I was not ready for the out pour of dark rain.
I remember when I was twenty five, someone ask me can I stand the rain? I quickly replied. Hell no. With my immature character and prideful without a no doubt. I was the lost warrior. I was a lost queen. I was a lost goddess. What does that mean? Constantly stabbing myself. The illusion of not right now. I will be humble and one day my time will come. I can’t believe I kept resurrecting myself. Adding demon after demon. Can I get some justice here?
If a student does not know. A student is not account for. When a curse is unknown. The one who curses with boosting, prideful, ambition, determination to destroy your existence. To be. To create your addition to the universe another universe call your own black whole (hole).
Don’t become your own hag. Just brag about how you came out of darkness. To just in gulf yourself back into the why light phaze.
Don’t brag if you never had. If you had. Give like your mad. Have I gone mad?
No.
I don’t want a sail on my ship. No. I do want a sail on my ship. I want to be the anchor of my ship. Why do I need a sail?
Unfamiliarities always will trigger our minds to exerting filth. The stitch of death.
We must grow. You are the author of your story. What forms of the unknown upon us occurs.
Yes.
You are the author on how your recieve, perceive, react, accept, and to reject. Die I say and die daily. Acknowledge your transits. Acknowledge your depositions. Too each your own. Two each I see. To see is to be.
Die with courage and bravery.
I Am Monique Denise Allen 